I thank the Lord everyday that I was born into a wonderful, loving, God fearing home. I was brought up by great parents who took care of me and I have a really awesome sister. School was always difficult for me. I was always distracted and as a result, didn't have the best grades. I didn't have a problem making friends but I did have a problem making close friends. To this day I only have a handful of true friends. I remember when I thought I found a whole group of brothers and sister that would stick up for me. Turns out they were the people who I had to be protected from. All through high school I've had leaders that helped me through difficult times. I became really attached to many of them and it seemed like right when something amazing would happen at church or youth group or at camp, God would move them to another church or state. Ever since that began to happen I've been almost scared to get too close to anyone or even have a mentor. But through all that, I think I finally got God's message. He was trying to teach me to have an independent relationship with Him. Looking back, I was always closest to God when I was using a leader as a crutch to connect with Him. God wanted me to be able to love Him truly and independently. No I'm not trying to undermine leaders or mentors. I hope to have some kid look up to me one day. I'm sharing this in the hope that my readers will understand my story a little better and know where I came from. I came from loneliness, attachment and almost abandonment struggles and all of this was fueled by doubt. Now I come from faith, love and understand. I'm so excited to see where my relationship with God is headed and to share my story with you all.
I started this whole Love project after having a wonderful day with my amazing boyfriend. Here's a little boy history. The first time that I had a "boyfriend" was when I was engaged to Kelii in preschool. Ever since then I could give you a name of my crush that I had through every year until the present. I didn't have my first real relationship until I was a freshman and I didn't have a real boyfriend until I was a Junior. As of right now, I've been dating my current boyfriend for four months and I'm the happiest that I have ever been with a guy. God has truly blessed me with the perfect man. I started this Love project so that I could discover what real Love was and be the greatest girlfriend and later wife to my future man.
Anyway, that's just a little bit about me(:
//Brittany Danielle//
